Sunday, October 25, 2009

So there you have it

Well if you remember I was finished with the third and ready to find someone for me that I was more compatable with, This is where my husband comes in, we were pen pals of sort during the last year of my marriage, he was in Tunisia and me in the states, we chatted frequently online and I was teaching him English and he was teaching me Arabic, he knew all of my secrets, I figured why not tell him he is so far away it is not like we would ever meet in person.

Then the day happened, he invited me to go to Tunisia and visit his family during the holy month of Ramadan, I was hesitant but it did not take long to decide that this was something I should do. I went and you know the rest.............we fell in love.

When I returned to the states I had to finish up some business loose ends, earn some cash for myself for my big move to Tunisia and the rest of my life. We married in Tunisia and we live in the same flat as the rest of the extended family, we are happy and that is all there is to that, I have a good feeling about this one so we will see what happens, my age was never a factor and really in some ways he is much older than I am.

Oh number three you really bore me

Ok so # 3 should have never happened, he was a drunk and a drug addict so thats as far as I will go into that relationship he was all wrong for me and was impossible to change so I had to rack it up to another bad choice and move on.

Monday, September 7, 2009

camel and baby

It would not be right if I did not add someting from the sites here in Tunisia, I even saw one in the back of an isuzu truck is'nt it ironic a camel hitching a ride in a truck, wait is an isuzu qualified to be called a truck?

Allah

What can I say there is nothing more beautiful than the name of Allah

Number two hurry it up please

So as if the number one was not enough, I moved on to number two, he was a great guy with lots of dreams and no cash and a kid on the way with an ex-girlfriend, why I got involved I don't know but I was hooked, he was a charmer and fun to be with and like I said he had big dreams of success. Well soon after we were married and the ex-girlfriends house was shot up by the drug dealers she owed money to, we had a baby to take care of. It was ok and hard and fun and everything that a family goes through................there was only one thing, he kept dreaming. Instead of buckleing down with the new family to support, he supported himself by vacationing twice to mexico alone and leaving us alone in Michigan, they were not small vacations these were months long and I was alone working with his child to support. We had been having many marital problems and after five years he got the ultimatum, I told him if he was going on vacation he must bring me, finally, my wedding ring, I heard mexican gold was pretty and affordable what better idea was that? So he came home and I carried his bags in  so excited and began the search for my ring, what an ass I was, there was no ring by the way but guess what i got!!!..............peanut brittle! so guess what happened with marriage number 2. I know it sounds silly but this was it, this was the deal, you give me a ring that shows me how much you love me and I got nothing! well that showed me huh.

God Willing

This is a pencil art that I did and it hangs above our bed, it says God willing in arabic "incha allah" it is a standard that we live by here "Are you coming home by noon for lunch"? "incha allah" everything happens only by the will of our creator, so that is a strong pill to swallow sometimes, I will tell you more about that later, right now I want you to get a feel of who I am and where I came from and hopefully where I am going in the future, do not be afraid to respond to my posts, I may cry, even though I do not know who you are I still know who I am and I am the most shy and embarrassed and easily shook up person I know but my peeps think I am this funny outging chick with no cares in the world. My dad calls me the wayward daughter, and there has been more than one occasion I am refered to as a "fly by the seat of my pants" kind of gal but its all a front folks, I'm just a big insecure whimp!  hehehe now tell me what you thing of my pencil art and sketch and I may just start posting more of them

grrrrrrrrr Oh sometimes I am sooo good!!!!

Now I want to share with you a passion of mine, I love to sketch but am so darn shy I cant get my work out there to be seen I am afraid of the critics I guess, What does this picture say to you? does it look good? am I as good as I think I am ? Yes your right I have a few issues I need to work on but being an artist has always been a dream of mine, you always hear the term "starving artist" well I never really fit into that category. I do animals the best but I will keep trying on doing still life people and stuff like that, my imagination has run astray  but I will get it back it has been 10 years since my last work on sketches I was in a funk and let life take over (by the way you should never ever do that, you miss too much). So if you ever get bored, pull out that #2pencil and sketch, its better than drinking!! yahoo I am a published artisit, now I just need someone to come and take a peek.